This is bad... Haven't been rowing for close to 3 weeks maybe 4 already..
What do I want? What is going on? Everything is so complicated.
I just wanna row and seems like everything is stopping me from it; work, taking so much time or should I say wasting so much time doing nothing; team issues, so confusing that I don't even know what is happening right now; commitment, not training on my own juz passing day by day and feeling so lethargic. Maybe I should stop blaming things around me and get a focus on what I actually want in life, well "life" may seem like too big a word, or should I say my rowing. It's hard to pick up from everything's that has happened.
I need to refocus. Feeling so negative for this whole stretch of time, never felt so consecutively low for such a long period. I neeeed counselling, but well, I wouldn't talk also.
ARGH! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME???
Donned my mask at 3:04 AM
I Want You Lyrics
by Savage Garden
Anytime I need to see your face,
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where
your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter
in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chic-a-cherry cola
I don't need to try and explain;
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again, I might move
so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face
of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to
Come stand a little bit closer
Breath in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
I'm the kind of person who endorses
a deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect
is what I live for
But a look, then a smell of perfume
It's like I'm down on the floor
And I don't know what I'm in for
Conversation has a time and place
In the interaction of a lover and
a mate,
But the time of talking,
using symbols, using words
Can be likened to a deep sea diver
who is swimming with a raincoat
Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you
Ooh, I want you I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Anytime I need to see your face,
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where
your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter
in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chic-a-cherry cola
I don't need to try and explain;
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again, I might move
so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face
of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to
Ooh, I want you I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
So can we find out?
Donned my mask at 2:16 AM
